Tuesday, May 13, 2008

A new direction...

I have been through so much in the past 10 months of my life. Everything that I knew, had, or was changed in a matter of weeks. I lived in a beautiful home, had a career, and was engaged to get married. One day I woke up to realize that I was not at all happy with the direction my life had taken me. I wanted out. And so I left. I left my fiancé and my beautiful home, I left my career, and I left Las Vegas. There was nothing left for me there.

I decided to head back to Reno, where I was born and raised. I have an amazing support system in Reno between my family and my amazing friends. After everything I had been through in Vegas I decided that moving back to Reno was the best thing for me at that point in my life. So I tried to make it work. I got a job (actually two), and I made the decision to go back to school. I already obtained a degree while living in Vegas, but I have always had an interest in nursing and so I decided to pursue it. I worked hard, but felt an immense emptiness, or a void. I have never really been an unhappy person, or one to be depressed, but I had felt as though I had begun to fall into a serious funk and I was unsure on how to bring myself back out. I began to go through the motions each day. I was becoming more unhappy with my situation and something needed to change.

I have always had a desire to travel the world. Ever since I can remember I have been fascinated with exotic cultures and far off places. My Dad has pushed me to travel the world for years, but I have always been uneasy about taking off on my own and chasing my dream. I was afraid of the unknown, of what could possibly happen to me while traveling on my own. I was torn between my strong desire to see the world, and my apprehensions of what may happen while carrying out my dream. Until now. I don’t really know exactly what happened, but all of my apprehensions about traveling have dissipated.

And so in a very short time my journeys will begin. I am in the process of wrapping up all of my loose ends in Reno so I can set off on my travels around the globe. I am so completely excited to begin this new chapter of my life.

2 comments:

Jen said...

Ah...my Blondie Martinez. What a difference a year makes, huh? We have both been through the shit wringer and come out on top. You have been a constant support to me and I admire your courage and strength. I'm glad we had the chance to be roomies and become even closer than before. I have learned a lot from you and I will not be selfish in telling you to stay, but rather to go explore, find yourself and have fun. You will always have your friends in Reno to love and support you in all that you do. Jen Perry and Blondie are tight, yo! Xoxo

Jen

Anonymous said...

You are a free bird. I'm excited to see where you will land. I will always love and support you. I couldn't be more proud of you. What ever happens I will always love and be here for you. Mom